Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Tuesday June 9 Evening

John will receive dialysis tonight until about midnight which will hopefully alleviate some of the acids and sedation in his blood. When I was with him at 5pm his eyes were open wide and he is being given exceptional care by his nurse, Jennifer. I don't have a lot to report in terms of change but we are in a holding pattern at this point.

We circle around his bedside and talk to him constantly and keep hoping that he might hear something or see something which will make him comfortable enough to wake fully. I am wearing bright t-shirts to the point that I actually donned a bright orange Houston Astro's shirt. Their record is astounding enough to make anyone mad and their logo is on the front of my shirt! I'm not sure it helps but I figure tomorrow I might try lime green in an attempt to catch his eye. Bumble bees and humming birds are attracted to bright colors and I am too, and I think if nothing else the colors might make him happy in an otherwise dark place. The family is getting into a rhthym of taking turns during visiting hours to make sure that we are spread out and get rest in between. The hospital staff have certain things that they have to accomplish and we do not want to impede their efforts, however we also do not want to miss the chance to let John know how much we love him.

These are long hours but we are learning something which cannot be taught and that is patience. We all want so much to happen in such a short period of time but we know that we must be patient, and be calm and wait. All of us want to fix what is wrong and make everything better but I write to you seven days, two hours and fifteen minutes away from thinking that I might not see John alive again. It is so hard to believe that it has been a full week since this horrible thing happened. At that time, I simply prayed for him to be okay. Well, my and everyone's prayers were answered and now, what we have to do is simply give him the time he needs to be where he needs to be. He deserves all the time he needs to heal from his injuries and he has earned all of the love and support we can muster.

His previous neurologist (from back surgery 3 years ago) went to see John and called Holly afterward. He is now a personal friend of theirs now and told us of how it breaks his heart to see John unable to joke with him and not alert. He was candid when he told us that he thinks there is good reason to believe that because John is where he is right now that the chance is there for John to recover. He also mentioned that for John to be without a breathing tube so soon is remarkable and that he sustained so much so early on is a testament to John's amazing physical strength.

Some have asked about what they can do or give to support the family and I want to say that at this point, things are taken care of. We want to express that there are simply no words to express the level of appreciation and gratitude all of us feel from the bottom of our hearts. I promise that as needs arise, I will make them public on this blog!

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